i'm out of titles

this is probably a bad time to write. my creativity isn't really up to par (not that par is usually even remotely acceptable). i shall attempt to give the standard update, and i may rant on a bit about something that doesn't particularly matter, such as the inner workings of my mind.

quick thought... i wonder how different the decision making process is from an internal standpoint from person to person. certianly we don't all come to simmilar conclusions the same way. maybe attepting to decypher how another person's decision process works would be akin to reading another language? well, just a thought.

life has been crawling. and i've been enjoying most aspects of it. the last week has been kinda busy though, as far as after work activity, but that's over for a week or two. the only thing that i didn't like about about the last week was how rigid the schedule was. i didn't have any room to just 'shoot from the hip' so to speak, which i feel is when i'm at my best.

it's happening very slowly, perhaps at a rate of 1% a month, but i feel myself getting less tame. my inner rage just keeps building, and it's not a constant by any stretch. some days i don't even notice it, but the times that i do, it's getting more profound. i'm not sure yet if i should fight it or accept it. i tend to feel that things happen for a reason, so i'll stand in the fog for a little while and see what shape it gathers in.

i really need to clean today. really.