winning?

it can be strange how one reacts to an event. sometimes a person can even surprise themselves. tonight, i bought into a poker game for $80 (i thought the buy in was going to be $100, but that wasn't the case). i work myself up to about $100 in 30 minutes, then look down at pocket kings. i raise with them ($20), and get called by the chip stack that had been running over the table. the first card off the flop was a K, with a Q and a 10 as well. i push hard, get called. the turn was a blank. i look down and notice that no matter what i bet, i wouldn't have much left to play with on the river. at this point, i'm thinking that he has AA, AK, or QQ, the only hands that would justify the preflop call. i push all in, and he calls, flipping over AJ (the nuts).

so be it. i lost $80 in less than an hour. the strange thing about it... i feel pretty damn good. i would have played the hand the same way if i had it to do over again, and i will be back for another game soon. maybe winning is a state of mind... to me, just playing in my first game in almost a year was a victory in itself, despite what the cash tally was at the end of the session. it was good to feel chips that represented something more again.

as far as other news goes... work is work. and that's about it. my cat is still insane, but what did anyone expect. i might find something entertaining to do over the weekend, but i doubt it.

i'm going to go play a game of pool.